Today I am

Today I am:

Unhappy.
Tired.
Cross.
Vulnerable.
Confused.

I get these things a lot of the time. But today was the first day in a long long time that rather than just bottling them all up inside and trying to ignore them as they're too horrible, I tried to deal with them.

I chanted about the things that have happened / I've learnt have happened before and resolved that I won't act irrationally.

I'd like to - brick my father's windows.
Actual - will speak to my sisters to agree on what we will do.


I'd like to - drink myself to oblivion and pull a sickie tomorrow so I can sit in bed all day moaning and watching James Bond films.
Actual - drink redbush tea and go to sleep early so I can get up early to source bricks for bricking my father's windows.. Not really. Although I'd love to.

I'm going to try and do more actuals as they are productive and better in the long run.

DO ACTUALS, HAYLEY.