My stereotypical Inner City Mixed Race Broken Family

I never really thought I made efforts to move away from the stereotype that was probably applied to me. I don't think I ever really thought about it as a child but as a grown up (...) I can see now that maybe I did. I played cello, liked poetry, liked metal and as an adult, I still like these things but I practise Buddhism now and try to be an all round good person. I was going to say good egg then but I'm scared of eggs. I've written that word twice now.

Then again, I have been arrested twice, taken a lot of drugs, slept with people who retrospectively, I shouldn't have done and never really did very well at school.

I guess now I think about it, I feel cross that my family is the stereotypical mixed race inner city broken family and that makes me very sad. I always thought I did the whole 'I'm better than this' and now I just think I'm a stereotype that is a product of another stereotype. I don't think I am better than this.

I'll list other members of my inner city mixed race broken family but for now, I'll write about two. (ICMRBF) consists of:

Father - black man who is an adulterous and spineless man who cannot persevere with anything whatsoever. He is verbally and physically abusive to his family but manages to convince others (including the women that he cheats on the mother with)  that he is an okay guy. He runs off with one of his mistresses, leaving the rest of the ICMFBR to fend for themselves.  He then has an epiphany, he is 'more' than this, he is 'better' than this and by buying Molton Brown skincare products and learning to play golf, he shows everyone that he really is better than this. Yes, he owns plus fours but he still somehow manages to slip back into patois whenever anywhere near LS7. Obviously the dirty little secret that he's black is forgotten by the time he gets back to LS18, he thinks nobody knows. Black man gone whack.

Daughter 1 - Eldest daughter. That is me so it's hard to write without sounding like an arsehole. Total Daddy's girl, dotes on her father, oblivious to what is really doing on. Has some non-sexual reverse Oedipus complex and dislikes the mother. Is probably the most gutted of all when father leaves but instead of breaking down, Daughter 1 gets all nasty and hostile. Gets kicked out of house after fisticuffs with mother and avoids getting involved for a long, long time. Even now, feels a little disconnected even though two young nieces are worth doting on and getting involved her. Daughter 1 goes all YOUNG, SINGLE, INDEPENDENT BLACK WOMAN WHO DON'T NEED NO MAN for a bit after a brief abusive relationship. Doesn't settle for anything that's not right but has some very deep seated need to be loved and needed, even though she thinks she doesn't. Has a 4 year relationship that fizzles out due to boredom, again goes YOUNG, SINGLE (you get the gist) woman before getting into another relationship. Decides never to settle for anyone that isn't right. Likelihood of dying alone is high. Daughter 1 doesn't mind so much, it's easier than opening up to someone again that doesn't 'get it' and going through the trauma all over again. BROWN WOMAN GONE ????

More ICMRBF later.